Linda Ortmayer (Walls) 1943 ~ February 25, 2018

We had nearly 40 years in Love with each other. Linda was the sweetest, loving person I have ever known. Everyone loved her. Linda had the worst kind of alzheimer’s called “Corticobasal Syndrome. It is a Alzheimers/Parkinsons Conundrum. Her last 3 months were absolute Hell. I stayed by her side 24/7 for those 3 months, December, January and February trying to help her get through the hallucinations, screaming and wailing. My heart will never heal. I still cry every day. I think I will be grieving until I take my last breath. I talk to her every day. Guess that is the cost of losing someone you have been in love with for almost 40 years.
Here is “LINDA’S LAST DAYS” Document:
From: William Walls
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Subject: Linda’s last days
Jan 15, 2018
I’m sending this text because I need you all to understand where, I’m afraid, we are approaching.  She now has constant head droop which means her chin is constantly resting on her chest even when she is laying down. She is resisting opening her mouth to eat or drink which adds to the difficulty of getting the food and water in her mouth with her chin on her chest. I have no idea how long this phase will last. I do know she is scared. I constantly tell her not to be scared that I am with her, that she is doing well and is going to be much better soon. She can hardly walk. She can’t walk from the bed to the living room about 20 feet. I now get her out of bed and into the wheel chair and into to her recliner from the wheel chair. 
Love  Bill
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February 2, 2018
JoAnne Smith from Holy Savior Hospice brought in a hospital bed and began helping with the heavy work caring for Linda.
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February 5, 2018
Linda sleeps almost all the time. That is perfectly normal with the progression of the disease. Unfortunately it means she is getting closer to dying. She will be your sleeping beauty. Her body just needs to rest. (JoAnne)
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February 20, 2018
The priest just left. He gave Linda the Sacrament of Anointing.
I'm with her all the time. I talk to her and pray for her face to face. She breaks my heart watching her get worse day by day. Sometimes she opens her eyes a little and I'm sure her eyes are saying "l love you" or maybe “help me”.  Only God knows how much longer we still have her. She stopped eating and drinking which means her time is soon. (Bill)
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February 25, 2018.
Linda passed on to God at 3:30 in the morning on Sunday morning February 25, 2018.
I went to bed this Sunday Night @10:00pm with a broken heart. The Hospital Bed next to me is empty. At 3:30 this morning my beautiful loving bride passed on to heaven. I have taken care of her for many years and now it's God's turn. Since her passing I have asked God, all day, to take care of my beautiful loving bride because I can't do it anymore. Everything I look at in the apartment reminds me of her. I don't think I will ever stop crying.
     We have made all the funeral plans here in San Antonio and the final mass in Fullerton CA, and grave site for family only in Long Beach CA. We will find out tomorrow, but it looks like we will be in Fullerton Wednesday for her funeral preparations.
     I did not know how much Linda became my whole life and purpose. It's going to be very hard if not impossible to find a new life and purpose. Pray for me. I miss her so much it hurts. I can’t bare to think of the world without Linda in it.  I’m grieving so much that I’m looking for a reason to be living.  I lost it loosing Linda. I'm so lonely and unhappy. 

submitted by Darlene Owens Durbin (1961)
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Darlene's response to Linda's husband, Bill:
Oh I am so very sorry she passed and I am sure she was loved so much and cared for by you. That makes all you did for her seem so very wonderful to me.
I will notify the FUHS Class of 61 of her Passing.
Thank you for letting me know. I loved her and we had such fun together when we were in school together. We double dated and she was a Bridesmaid in our Wedding 57 years ago!!
I will always love and miss her. I had just found her again and then you moved so I feel like I have just lost her again! I believe you kept her alive for a long time with your love for her. Thank you for that.
I wish you the Peace that passes all understanding as you certainly do deserve it.
Darlene